"My typical love story" -part 2

Steph, 18
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I told myself that I didn't want to fall in love right now. With everything that was happening in my life, i didn't know if i can handle everything. And besides i was still in love with someone. So I just kept myself busier than ever. I joined all the activities that i can attend. And this particular activity was the most unforgettable one. 

It was a 3 day seminar for the youth members of our parish. The day was April 17 2009- a Friday, when I had an unexpected reunion with my classmate from way back then in Kindergarten. It was really unforgettable because i saw myself being stupid and really confused. haha! Somebody asked me out of the blue if i still knew someone named Lorenz Santiago. The name rang a bell, so i said yes. And when she pointed to the guy standing beside me i asked if it was him. Stupid right! haha! Everyone of us wore a sticker on our shirts with our names written on it. And after that situation i then asked Her how did she know that i knew someone named Lorenz, NOT EVEN KNOWING THAT WAS HER SON! haha!! OMG right?! haha!! that was a really awkward situation for me. 

After that very unexpected meeting, Me and Lorenz had a little chat. Tried to ask how life went after years of separation. He was a really fun guy to talk with. He was a little snob though he redeemed himself with his innocent smile. We got really close after a few talks. And when he started to talk about this girl he really liked, i realized he was a really sweet guy. although we knew each other back then its like we just met last Friday. but in a few days he really managed to show me who he really was. He was the type of guy who really enjoyed Food as much as i did. haha! He was a the shy type but as soon as you get a connection with him, he really has a lot to say. A very sweet and caring guy even if you're just friends. and with him being a boyfriend, i know he would be a great one. 

In just a short time i never did just realize how much a great guy he is, I also saw myself in the verge of falling for him.

But i can't. He loves someone else. I can't just go and tell him i love him. besides, Its not like he feels the same as i do right? I just have to keep this feelings for myself. He doesn't have to know. 

As time passed, he became the usual sweet and caring guy as he is. but i was falling for him more and more, but what should i do, should i tell him? Should i tell him that i love him?