Nov 30, 2009

The first one. <3

Thirteen years ago there were two kids who knew nothing about love. After 2 years of being classmates in kindergarten they parted ways and never heard from each other since then. Although they took different paths they never forgot about each other. Thirteen years later their paths crossed. And that’s how a crazy love story began.

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Before you read this I’m really hoping that you wouldn’t cry.=) I know I just got this idea from my sister. Hehe.xp but I liked it. And I think this is a way for me to tell you how I feel.

when i think of everything that is happening to us i feel scared. i feel scared bcoz all of these might be a dream. a dream that would just fade away. but im happy it isnt.=) im really happy that when i open my eyes i can see you beside me. im happy that i could feel you hugging me so tight like there's no tomorrow.im happy that i could still feel you kiss me before you go home and im happy that i could still hear your voice when you tell me that you love me with all your heart. what i mean is, im soo happy that all of this isn't a dream.<3

you are such an awesome guy.caring, sweet in your own way, kind hearted, fun to be with, totally honest and sincere. these are just some of the reasons why i fell for you. any girl who you would fall for is very lucky. and i'm glad that its me.=) thank you. thank you for seeing the best me. thank you for making me feel special, thank you for being there for me when i need someone.thank you for putting this smile on my face.=) thank you for everything. you asked me once if i was happy, and what i answered is true.im happier than i've ever imagined. and that's bcoz of you. =) everytime you smile, everytime you look into my eyes, everytime you hug me and everytime you tell me that you love me makes me happier than ever.<3 i always thank God for giving me the chance to be happy even for the last time. i thank HIM for giving me a BRYAN LORENZ.=) a person who would love me for who i am. a person who would love me despite all odds. i know i may not be the perfect girlfriend, but i still try to be one for you.=) i just want you to know that i will do everything to make you happy. =)

alam mo ba, everytime that you fall asleep, i just look at you and think. so many things comes into my mind. things that's hard to explain. but now i know what it is. i know that i feel happy and scared and still confused and mostly happy.=D i feel confused coz until now i dunno what in the hell you saw in me.=)) i feel happy coz i have you in my life and i feel scared bcoz i have to leave.='( i feel scared of the future.im scared of what would happen to us when the time comes that we have to leave.

every night before i sleep, or even when im with you i still feel sad bcoz i have to leave.='( ngaiun pa, when everything is going smooth. ngaiun pa when i already have you.='( I told myself that I shouldn’t love anymore. I was scared. I was scared that I’d get hurt. And I was scared that I would also hurt the one I love. I knew I was leaving. So LOVE was out of my plans. That was then before I met you. I never thought that something special would happen. I never expected that I would fall for you this hard. And I also didn’t expect that you would feel the same. so i want to say sorry bcoz i know that i am hurting you now. and i will hurt you in the future. but i wish you could promise me that you would be strong. i wish you could promise me that you would do your best not to cry.you would do your best to put a smile on your face everyday and continue to be happy. i know the time will come i may never get to see you as often as i like. i may not get the chance to hold you in my arms throughout the night but deep in my heart i truly know you're the one that i love and cant never let go that easily.=)

i'll miss the freakin' way you made me laugh, i'll miss the stupid jokes we shared, i'll miss the damn things we used to do, but above all these, i'm gonna miss you.=')

LOVE YOU BRYAN LORENZ!<3

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