Apr 25, 2014

My hearts' return

From heart breaks to stupid decisions; selfish actions to undefined situations; my heart returns.

Falling in love is certainly one of the best things a human being can experience in their lives. Some say you can only fall in love once and then that's it. But I say,people fall in love more than once but only find true love with the one person they're destined with.

Love is more than a feeling; love is a choice. Even if you don't notice it, you end up choosing the person you want to be with. It's not bad, it may not be the best either. At the end of the day,  that choice makes you happy, and that's what's important. 

My heart returns from being broken so many times to choosing to fall in love again. Someone once told me that, unfortunately, it's not all rainbows and butterflies.sometimes we have to accept that things we choose or want don't always go how we want it to go. 

I, for one, get a small crack on my heart whenever this happens. It's hard for me to just "drop it" or just "let it go". Sometimes I don't intend to choose to not be okay but I don't choose to be okay either. I choose to stay mad, upset, sad or disappointed when something doesn't turn out the way I want it to be. I choose to just say "no, it's whatever" rather than saying what I really feel. That's on me. 

Even though I choose paths that should not be taken, my heart still choses to love. It's not as easy for a person like me to just let go, but I'm trying to because I choose to love. It may take a while, but I hope you choose to be patient with me. 


Because in the end, I choose to love. Even with all the stupid decisions and selfish actions, I choose to love you.

Oct 2, 2013

Day 14,15,16,17/3.6.5 project

Dear undefined,

Feeling nostalgic, I missed you. Seeing videos of you, pictures of you; happy with the life you had before you met me, makes me wonder if you still feel the same. Happy without me. 


We almost had it. We almost knew what love was. But almost is never enough.

I still miss you,flyer.


-undefined

Sep 28, 2013

Day 11,12,13 /3.6.5 project

Dear undefined,

So, i don't know what to say. I still tear up as I remember that I had to let you go.  

I didn't want to, but I had to. You need it more than me, to be free from this undefined relationship.

I want to be yours and you to be mine, but maybe now is not the time. But I will still be here for you. Writing you these letters, loving you, thinking about you.


Always and forever, 
Undefined



(Only you would remember, #SF2013 , #hotchocolate , #warmhugs)